I am a doggone likeable person. I mean I AM realistic and know everyone doesn’t or can’t like me in the whole wide world, that’s not possible, but to my face at least, I don’t know of any enemies. I just kind of get along with everybody and I think I’m nice to everybody. But….
She hurts my feelings. I love her anyway.
I continue to love her.
My family and close friends have seen it and they ask me the same question over and over.
I’ve begged God to close the door, He hasn’t. I’ve asked Him to heal her heart towards me, He hasn’t. I’ve said, “God, if you’re not going to close the door or heal her heart towards me (yet), then please heal my heart and keep the door wide open.” He’s working on one and clearly doing the other.
Why do I do this? I am realizing the simple answer is it’s not about who she is. It’s about who I am. And I am me, I just can’t help it. And quite frankly, in this regard, I don’t want to change me. I don’t want to not love someone and I don’t like closed doors.
Child, you have hurt my feelings. I love you anyway.
Child, I want to take up space in your heart, but you don’t always let me. I love you anyway.
Child, I continue to love you.
I continue to wait for you.
I continue to cheer for you.
I continue to build you up in others hearts and minds.
I tell you you’re wonderful (if you’d just listen.)
I continue to give to you daily.
All while some days I feel nothing in return.
The simple answer is it’s not about who you are (thank goodness). It’s about who I am. And I am Me, I just can’t help it. I made you, I love you, and I always will. I want you to do the same for others, even when you feel they don’t deserve it, not because of who they are but because I made you that way.
I pray not to change who I am because of who someone else isn’t. I pray to be me. I pray you be you…. even when someone or some people don’t get you, love you, return it full-fold. Don’t let them change you.
I’m still trying! And I’m still loving.