• When I was 19.

    I was waiting in a doctor’s office this week when something crossed my mind out of the blue. It happened in my late teens and I’ve never talked about it. It sometimes whispers to me as if to remind me it’s still there, and when it does, I slink back in time a little, and am surprised that 38 years later it still crosses my mind. I feel sorry for that 19 year old girl, her life was changed. I’m also proud of that 19 year old girl; her life has changed. Guilt and shame happen to us all, sometimes because of choices we make, and sometimes for things out…

  • Grab that straw and run!

    I was thinking this morning about someone I know who can just suck the life out of me along with every ounce of joy and happy with the opening of their mouth, the expression on their face, their words and comments.  I’ll bet you don’t know anyone like that.  As I sit here typing these words, I must admit I always feel some pity for this person. What a lonely existence to be a life-joy-happy-sucker to other people.  They have to feel how they make others feel, it’s so sad, even if they do it to themselves.  Something makes or made them that way and it couldn’t be anything good.…

  • Bless my pallbearers.

    Our last act on earth will be taking our last breath. Visualize breathing in and out one last time. Isn’t that crazy to think about? I watched my Mama take hers and it is a moment engrained in my mind forever. I’m sure many of you have been there. As we finally exhale, our calendars will mean nothing. The appointments will just go unattended, notes won’t make sense to anyone, our kids will likely discuss who gets the darn thing and whether to trash it or not. All the trinkets and books, clothes and cars, dishes and tupperware and makeup, jewelry and golf clubs, all that stuff we had to…

  • Dear Worry.

    Dear Worry, You try so hard to plant seeds in my mind, to make me fret about what’s going to happen, where I’ll be in a year, whether things will work out in this way or that. Why? I just want to know why? Is it necessary for you to make yourself feel better? Does it make you feel good when I lie awake at night with you on my mind? The thing is, I know that if I give in to you, you only grow, get bigger, and take over more areas of my life. I just don’t like anything having that much power over me. I may be…

  • And suddenly.

    We all go through really tough things, maybe you’re going through something now. It can be suffocating. We wake up wondering how we’ll get through the day, we feel broken, we wonder how to even put one step in front of the other. Tears won’t stop or rarely take breaks and it feels like the walls are closing in. Anyone else ever been there? I was there the week my mother died and in the months that followed; I was also there in the years prior while watching her slowly die from Alzheimers. I went through it again when my marriaged ended. There were days I just didn’t want to…

  • God’s love and the sea.

    No matter how much time I spend at the ocean, I am constantly amazed at it’s vastness, it’s endless appearance, the reflection of the sun on the tops of the waves, just all of it. It terrifies me and exhilirates me all at the same time. This week, we had a morning that the tide came in way further than usual and the waves were the tallest I’d ever seen. The tide chart said they were over 6 and 7 feet tall and it was clearly true as we watched them for over an hour break taller than us and crash down with such power. It was a mesmerizing and…

  • Dear Time.

    You are a thief. There, I said it. I don’t want to upset you because I so desperately need more of you but it’s true. You go too fast and we can’t keep up. We beg you to slow down and most often you don’t listen. Or maybe we don’t listen. I’m not sure which one it is. We cling to you for dear life as you slip through our hands like trying to hold sand. I guess maybe we are meant to enjoy the sand slipping through our fingers, the feel of it, the joy of it, like toddlers on the beach. But we forget because we’re grasping so…

  • Floyd, VA: Final Day!

    The final day in Floyd was certainly the most adventurous and so much fun! Here was our itenirary for the day: Buffalo Mountain Ziplining Five Mile Mountain Distillery Outer Space BUFFALO MOUNTAIN ZIPLINING Y’all…. my heart was so happy waiting on this all week! B had never been ziplining, I had once over a mountain gorge in Colorado on a dare and this was just something I couldn’t wait to experience with him. IT – WAS – FUN. We got so lucky because they normally take groups of 10 together and no one else signed in our time slot!! We got the oh so wonderful and entertaining guides all to…

  • Floyd, Virginia: Day Two

    Welcome to day two of our discoveries in the wonderful town of Floyd! Here was our itenirary for the day: Sunrise on Blue Ridge Parkway Breakfast at Blue Ridge Diner Coffee at Red Rooster Coffee Coffee and visit with Kathy (met on JCG page!) Lunch at the PharmHouse Shopping downtown Dinner at Parkway Grill Ice Cream at Soda Fountain SUNRISE on the BLUE RIDGE PARKWAY How blessed we are to have this beautiful parkway close by. I think it’s easy to take it for granted when there are so many overlooks that are breathtaking, areas to stop and have a picnic, and spots to just breathe and take it all…