You try so hard to plant seeds in my mind, to make me fret about what’s going to happen, where I’ll be in a year, whether things will work out in this way or that. Why? I just want to know why? Is it necessary for you to make yourself feel better? Does it make you feel good when I lie awake at night with you on my mind?

The thing is, I know that if I give in to you, you only grow, get bigger, and take over more areas of my life. I just don’t like anything having that much power over me. I may be big hearted and walk around with rose colored glasses wanting all to be right in the world, especially this little corner I’m in, but I’m also strong-willed and I don’t want to give in to you. You’re not worth it. If anything, me giving in to you only makes me weaker and you stronger, and that just is not going to cut it.

And, and, and… another thing, if I let you win, it will not change the outcome! You may have the power to stress me out but you don’t have the power to change a darn thing, not even one tiny little bit. Even God says so. So there.

So, I would like you to take a break, a much needed long vacation, go away for a few days, or eternity, you’re putting a damper on my party. And by the way, kiss my derriere on the way out.

xoxo,

jcg