The things I want in this life are not complicated or difficult. They’re really quite simple and I long for them. I want them for you too, even if I don’t know you, because I really do just want them for everybody.
I want to love deeply and feel loved deeply.
I want someone to love me so much that they can’t imagine a life without me in it.
I want to feel pursued and I want to pursue without fear.
I want to laugh every single day at least one time, or 100, either is fine.
I want to do more than accept myself, I want to love myself, every single part, the new parts of me, the old parts of me, the whole me.
I want to live a life without apologizing all the time, without justifying all the time, without explaining all the time. I don’t want to feel I owe these to anyone. Ever.
I want to dream my own dreams, even if some are small and simple, and not feel guilty for not dreaming bigger or wanting more, more, more.
I want to watch the sun rise and the sun set every time I get the chance.
I want to feel sand squishing under my feet and between my toes and on the backs of my legs as I sit in it and play with my grandson or draw the date to remember when I was there.
I want to wake up without a care in the world, to know I’m okay and am going to be okay, that I am safe and sound and at peace.
I want to see at least one thing good in everyone I meet, even if it’s just their smile; I want everyone I meet to see at least one good thing in me, even if it’s just my smile.
I want to have the strength to walk away when my heart is screaming run. I want to have the strength to hold on when my heart is screaming it’s worth it. I want to listen to what my heart says.
I want to be brave and say what I think kindly; I want to be brave and know when to not say a word. Both take courage.
I want to dance in the kitchen to my favorite tunes even if it’s only playing in my heart.
I want to listen quietly for God’s whispers and hear Him even in the silence.
I want to one day not want anything and realize I have it all already.
xoxo,
JCG
Thanks for being here, sharing my crazy thoughts, and hopefully relating to you in some small way.
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