I stumbled upon this song today by Jerry Lansdowne dedicated to his mother with Alzheimers.  Just had to share the lyrics because they’re exactly what we think Mama must feel or have felt back in the earlier stages…..

“I’m not me anymore”

I’m breaking
I can feel it inside
Something’s taking over my mind
Causing page after page of memories to fade
Into nothing
I’m losing more of me everyday
It’s confusing
I feel lost and betrayed
As places and things faces and names
Fade into nothing

I’m not me anymore
Not who I used to be, anymore
There’s a thief running loose in my head
A thief who won’t rest till I’m dead
Stealing my mind one cell at a time
Till I’m nothing

I hate this
I can’t run, I can’t fight
I can’t take this
I feel buried alive
I don’t know who I am
Just a shell of some man
Left with nothing

I’m not me anymore
Not who I used to be, anymore
There’s a thief running loose in my head
A thief who won’t rest till I’m dead
Stealing my mind one cell at a time
Till I’m nothing
Just nothing
Nothing