Good morning!! I hope you slept like a baby last night. I didn’t but I woke up too excited to sleep so I don’t mind getting up early when that happens!

I am going to ask for prayers today! Nothing is wrong, something feels right, and I want so much to trust my heart, I want so much to keep my mouth shut and my mind clear and focused… but those last few are so hard when I’m a bouncing ball in a rubber room! Focus? And I’ve only had two cups of magic coffee.

You see, I went through a spell of about four years where I fell apart, a huge part of my story. During that time, I was working 7 days a week, all while a LOT of things were happening around me. My Mom and Dad had major health challenges, I was caregiving a lot which I wanted to do but was exhausted, my own health issues came up but took a back seat, and then deaths and divorce and losses I can’t explain. I was falling off a cliff and no one could hear me calling out for help because I was screaming silently. I didn’t want anyone to know and I masked it with the badge of busy-ness.

As I spiraled, I lost my drive and passion for anything and everything especially one thing that used to mean the world to me. That totally blew my mind and confused me. I begged God to give it back to me and He wouldn’t and He didn’t. As my life started turning around, I just knew He would hand it back and say, “Now, get to work!” but He didn’t. I started to feel He wasn’t listening and I got angry, sad, confused. I cried out, “Why won’t you give this one thing back to me? It’s all I want? Didn’t you give it to me in the first place?” Why, why, why, wah, wah, wah.

Well, you know what? I’m realizing that He was listening all along! He was answering all along! He just wasn’t responding in the way I wanted Him too when I wanted him too. My timing sucks almost every time but His was and is always perfect and sometimes He’s holding His answer because I’m not ready or maybe He has something totally off the wall, something better, in store. Maybe He needs to change us before He fills our cup!

So I pray for myself and for you that we have a clear mind, open heart, and for us to lift an empty cup and wait for Him to fill it, not with what we want or when we want, but with the best stuff in the House and only when we’re ready. We got this, right?! We as in He and I, Him and you, we got this thing!!

Tracey